It's taken me awhile to write. I have come on many times, but then just sit here with no words coming. I'm finally making myself write something!!
My last post talked about how excited I was for the school year to start...wow, so much has changed in that month. I started off so excited and am now just feeling so discouraged. Feeling like I"m not making a difference and that I spend 100% of my day dealing with outrageous and irritating behavior problems. I just want to teach, but don't really feel like I am able to b/c of the stuff going on. I feel bad for the majority of my class who are such great kids, b/c they are not getting what they need b/c so many others are taking that away from them. I'm just feeling like I need a change...I don't know what that means exactly, but I can't go on feeling like I do about it.
Now for the joy of my life, little Sophie....wow, what can I say about her? She makes me laugh soooooooooooooooooo much. Seriously, she is the "light" at the end of my day. I pick her up from the baby sitters and she comes running up to me saying "Mummy!" She is such a talker. She loves talking about "shoes" and singing "happy to you" (happy birthday to you). She loves to pray and does it all the time:) What a sweetheart. I was always scared to have kids, scared that it would change my life in a way that I didn't want it to...man, how wrong could I have been? Sophie has filled my life with sooooooooooo much joy. Wow.
Jeremy is writing more music, it's so awesome to see him doing that again. There were a few really "dry" years with that but it's amazing to see the songs come out again. He is so gifted in his music.
And me, I am doing well...take away the stresses of the day and I know I am so blessed. I have to keep reminding myself of that sometimes when life seems tough. God doesn't give you more than you can handle, that's my mantra these days!
